Going back?

So after my two years of studying in a public school, my parents and I agreed that I return to my old Alma Mater and finish my high school there.

Going back to Cherished Moments School, was a big set back to me. I planned on never returning to this school because I was bullied before and now I am coming back because I was bullied in my previous school. Funny? Ironic? I call it shitty.

When I returned to my old school, my old classmates where still there. Some new classmates as well. But I detached myself with all of them during my first months of returning. Why? I thought it best to be alone and study and go home than having friends that will stab you in the back and hurt you when you least expect.

During lunch time, I ate far away from the eating area that was built and ate near the gym where above it was the faculty. A teacher always sees me eating there but I guess told her co-workers about it. Miss Rivera, my English teacher and tutor during my later stay told me to "mingle with your classmates". I remember then that I tried to smile and shook my head.

But even though I was a loner in the class, my recitations during Advance Algebra and how I understood quickly the lessons took focus on some of my classes, two of which are now my best friends. To be honest, the only thing I was proud of when I left my old school was that my math subjects were advance and so does my science subjects, so discussing it in class is more like a refresher than a new knowledge to gain.

I also had an admirer during my first months back, I didn't know back then that he was interested because he is such a weirdo then. I realized it was legit when he sat on my chair while I was gathering my stuff to leave and he spoke like those guys in the old movies trying to court the girl they liked. It was a funny scene because some of our classmates was looking at us and he was looking at me and I was looking at my stuff. In other words, I was turning him down even without saying it and probably embarrassing him in the process.

We're still friends after that but I was a bit sorry because I didn't know he was that serious about it.

During my later stay in CMS (Cherished Moments School), I made an untimely friendship with Geovani, an achiever, and Rocelle, one of the prettiest girls in the batch. We started off as being lunch buddies.

Rocelle, Me, Geovani

I was walking to my usual spot in the gym when I saw Geovani and Rocelle talking to each other and Rocelle pointed at me and asked me if I wanted to have lunch with them. I agreed and that was the start of our friendship. Lunch time is always the time were we always enjoy the company of one another and that is where I saw the silver lining of my high school life.

On the start of my Fourth year in High School, Rocelle was transferred into a different class and left me and Geovani in the other. It was hard because we were inseparable. Still we tried to come together if our breaks coincide or if there was a batch event and all of us needed to be there.


During that year too, I was matched with Cloie, a guy who was in love with another (A junior in my school and his ex-girlfriend, they broke up because the tutor of Cloie told them too) but because of some discussion in class he and I became the tease of the class.

The class was discussing about the future and I was called by the substitute teacher, who was our computer teacher and asked about finding a partner in life.

"Well my partner must have the same faith as me"

Then he looks at Cloie, who is a member of the Iglesia Ni Cristo. And sadly the only one our class who was a guy and has the same faith as me.

"Why not Cloie? He is handsome and has the same faith as you"

I smirked and said "No thank you". The the crowd hollered and teased us for quite some time.

I tried to play it off because I know it's just for fun but (history repeats itself) I fell for him.

This is unlike the first one because the ex-girlfriend of Cloie and sadly the entire batch of his ex-girlfriend was mad at me because they thought I was flirting with him.

Me?! Really?! Blame Mr. Aquino and the class for it! That is what I kept in mind even after now.

What hurt the most during that time was during Prom Night. I didn't attend the last years prom and since this was my last year in school might as well join in the fun. But it ended up with me trying to smile while Cloie took her ex-girlfriends' hand and danced with her. IN FRONT OF ME.

You see in my church we were not allowed to attended prom because it may lead to other shady places. But the rules became lax and was told to not dance instead, we could attend and eat and have fun but not dance. But Cloie was a rule breaker. I was obedient.

First and Last Prom picture

It was painful to see the happiness Cloie felt and the smugness her ex-girlfriend right in front of me. His ex-girlfriend was pretty and nice but with what happened; I see her true beauty come to view.

She and I are good now but I keep my distance because I don't want to be part of that episode or any episode with her on the picture ever again.

It was also during these years I grew to love reading and during my loner times, I spend my time in reading a book, even with Geovani and Rocelle, I will read and read and read.

I was still bullied but its not as extreme as before because I know how to maneuver my way now. Geovani and Rocelle on the other hand were bullied and I was always there for them because I know that what they need was someone to be there. I didn't experience that during my first two years and I don't want my two best friends to feel that either. They felt it anyways but I tried my best to be their buffer to all of it.

Batch Orange 2012